Chapter I. i was married

Try to control the pull of one magnet to another. This town that I now see, The voices of these kids and the loving voices of this birds, and me with a white dress, under the sun and trying to focus on my own “Hell is pain, don’t think, don’t think, don’t smile” I thought, I remembered that song of Tegan and Sara, the one that my brother used to heard at the living room when he had to do his homework, it wasn’t easy or happy to forget those times…
“Don’t loose yourself” my deep down voice continue talking, that feeling was becoming annoying “This is a lie, everything is a lie” I didn’t wanted to look back and regret the ideas that brought me here, I guessed that it would be a good think, I think. Now to hold one, one word and it all will be over, this time of “adolescence” will end, “grow up and everything will be over, stay and you will stay, fly and you will fall” not the positive thoughts that I wanted to hear, yeah my brain was collapsed, at least, I thought that. All were serious; I was about to kill myself at the middle of the walk, still the faces of the people were scary. I’m frightened, I admit it, my heart was beating faster, the kids running after a big pink balloon, it was big, but it needed some color, was an old balloon, but still it had the strength to fly around the beach and be free. The softness of the sand in my feet and the air above in my hair…
This was pretty much as I have imagined “tangles in my ears, tears in my eyes, they had something to do with” what kind of relief, well seemed that I was pretty sure of this idea of love.